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FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [1/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-16 09:49 am (UTC)(link)------
1/? --- pair: Kylo/Finn
Finn's been with other guys before. After all, a bunch of people living in cramped quarters in space and facing death at any moment are bound to have a lot of pent up sexual tension and who best to release that tension with than the very people around you?
He's been with guys on the Resistance base, too. A couple of people who come through to deliver supplies, the medic who bandaged him up after he'd gotten back and Poe. Finn liked Poe because Poe could do things and say things that would send Finn into a hot and hurried frenzy. Sometimes, Poe would leave him with a souvenir hickey and a soreness that was a constant reminder that it wasn't all a dream. But Poe, Finn thought, must be nothing compared to Kylo Ren. Finn bit down hard on his lips, almost drawing blood, at the thought of the the former Sith Lord.
Kylo Ren had sauntered onto the Resistance base about a month ago. After twenty-minutes on high alert, everyone taking the sudden appearance of the young man as the sign of an imminent attack, General Organa had called off the order. Kylo Ren himself wouldn't have been much of a threat to anyone: he had suffered more damage than Finn back on Takodana after Rey was through with him and it showed in the knight's slight limp and faint bruises. Kylo fell into his mother's arms and begged for her forgiveness. He may have been crying and Finn thinks that Rey might have literally knocked some sense into him.
Naturally, the General forgives him. It was just everyone else that didn't. And not only did they not forgive him, they didn't trust him either. Finn had to admit, after what Kylo had pulled with Han, he didn't trust him either and for a while found it hard to look at his former commander. But as time passed everyone, even if they didn't like or trust him, got used to his presence around the base.
Finn eyed him carefully each chance he got. Kylo, who General Organa insisted be referred to as Ben, tried his best to integrate. He worked in Intelligence but knew surprisingly little about the Supreme Leader's plans. He was still able to offer some vital information and managed to gain a little more creditability with each passing day. Eventually people got tired of being on guard around him, or maybe they were starting to kind of like Ben Solo and gradually forget Kylo Ren. By his sixth month on the base, he had even assembled a small group of friends, although Finn noticed he didn't talk much and mainly sat quietly, contented to just be apart of the group.
"Hey, buddy!" Poe clasped a hand on Finn's should, startling him out of his trance. "What are you staring at? Oh! At our little prince, huh?"
"Shut up. " Finn laughed and gave Poe a little shove that was met with the equal and opposite reaction of Poe's arm slinging around Finn's neck.
"Can I take your gaze away from the guy who almost killed you..." Poe had a sick sense of humor sometimes, Finn thought, "and ask you to join your friends, who have been kindly waiting for your kingly presence for about ten minutes now?"
Finn had been so wrapped up in his thoughts he'd completely forgotten he was in the middle of the mess hall and being an overall nuisance to anymore who wanted to grab a utensil from the table behind him. "Alright. Lead the way, flyboy."
And Poe, ever the leader, led Finn straight to a table that hosted Rey, Jessika and Snap. "Look who finally decided to grace us with his presence," Rey said with a small laugh, letting loose that radiating smile of hers, "What was the hold up?"
Poe finally released Finn and took his place beside Snap. "He was cemented to the floor and not so subtly ogling Darth Why-The-Long-Face."
Poe tried to sound playful but just enough hostility seeped through at the end to remind everyone at the table that Poe was still in the camp of people who still didn't like Kylo Ren. It's understandable after what he's been through, Finn thinks.
"He's not that bad, y'know? Apart from the whole evil empire backstory he's got." Snap chimed in after a minute, shifting in his seat. "He's trying, I mean."
"No one can escape their past." Finn notes, half-addition to the conversations and half-thinking out loud. He grins at Poe, "But they can shape how it molds their future. I believe a certain dashing pilot told me that?"
He nudges Poe until the pilot cracks a smile and lightly punches him in the arm. Poe lets out a small sigh and in an attempt to lighten the mood, he leans towards Finn's ear and whispers just loud enough for everyone to hear, "You know what, despite what I think about him personally, I gotta say, I wonder what all those years of conditioning does for him in other aspects of his life."
If Finn could hear a wink, he heard it in Poe's voice just now. But it was Rey, sweet Rey, who got straight to the point. "You mean his sex life, right?"
Jessika almost spit her water out at the comment and her cheeks seemed to have invited a rosy pink color to stay for a while. If Finn was obvious, then he wasn't sure what to Jessika was supposed to be.
"Isn't the Dark Side all about pain?" Snap added. "He must be into that rough play stuff."
"Oh! Like sex-slave role play?" Rey chirped, "Or, oh! What's that thing called with the whips and the chains and the gags?"
Jessika is out of commission at this point so Poe decides to take the reigns, "It's called BDSM. And I bet that little freak just loves filthy language. Probably helps get him off while he's stepping on people or whipping them."
"Owghr spwanking dem." Snap adds with a mouthful of bread.
Finn didn't want to but just thinking about Kylo and spankings and dirty talk and all the other filthy, filthy things his friends were saying were kind of making him hard. Which is probably what Mr. Poe Dameron was plotting from the very beginning, the jerk. Poe smirks as he eyes Finn and slaps his back, "I wonder if little ole Ben likes to be humiliated though? Probably wants you to call him 'weak' and tell him--"
Finn thinks it's over when Poe abruptly stops. Little does Finn know, Poe had been hit by a spark of inspiration. And Rey picks up on it, exclaiming almost a bit too loudly, her eyes wide as if she had come to a personal realization of her own, "Imagine what he could do to a person with the Force." Rey trails off, "Just imagine..."
And goodbye, Jessika! Finn laughs internally as Jessika takes her tray and stands abruptly. The rose color had left and a bright red face remained, "I have to go take care of stuff now. I'll see most of you at drills."
Smiles populated the table as Jessika shuffles off to the barracks. Jessika's comment reminded Rey and Snap that they needed to work of their respective ships before drill-time, leaving just Finn and Poe alone at the table in a now nearly empty mess hall.
"Y'know, he's probably into a lot dirtier and more dangerous things than we've ever done. It's just the way he was brought up by those warped personalities in the First Order," And Poe is leaning on his elbow, looking up at Finn with smiling eyes, and speaking as sweetly as Poe Dameron can. "I don't like him and if he hurts you in any way you don't like, I'll be sure he feels the pain hundredfold."
Finn gives Poe a small, thankful smile. "Thanks, buddy."
A few moments pass as the two stare at each other. As they stand up and head out the mess hall into the bright courtyard just outside, Poe begins again with a sigh and squinting his eyes to see his friend clearly. "Well, I'm not sure if I should say "happy hunting" or "have fun being hunted", it all depends on Kylo, doesn't it?"
They both laugh, but Finn can't help but feel a bit of trepidation as he sees none other than Kylo Ren turning the corner.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [1/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-16 10:02 am (UTC)(link)Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [1/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-16 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [1/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-17 04:12 am (UTC)(link)FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [2/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-17 01:22 pm (UTC)(link)----
2/? --- pair: kylo/finn
Finn thinks about very casually running away. He nudges Poe and points to the fast approaching tuff of dark hair. Poe returns to face Finn and clasps his hand on his shoulder, "Speak of the devil. Here's your chance."
Finn, his mind still filled with images of Kylo and filth, wasn't particularly keen on seizing this particular opportunity. "I wish I knew how. I'm freaking out, man."
"You could start by just talking to him?" Poe shrugged and decided he didn't like the idea of watching his best friend flirt with his mortal enemy, "You know what they say: three's a crowd. Dameron out."
Poe gave Finn a final pat on the back, which evolved into a shove forward in Kylo's direction, before he walked off. Finn took a deep breath. "Hey, uh," and Finn made a quick executive decision, "Ben."
It might have been the way Kylo's expression changed or his subconscious Stormtrooper conditioning but he instantly feels like he shouldn't have been so...personal. Kylo resumes with his usual facial expression but with a wariness in his voice, "You're Finn."
Finn wasn't really sure how to keep the conversation going so he channeled Poe in his response. "Yeah, I used to," Finn lets out a small, awkward laugh, "like, kind of work for you."
When Kylo's expression changed again, Finn didn't really think much of it. Finn hadn't been out of the First Order long and he still had trouble reading emotions from facial expressions. It'd gotten him into trouble a couple of times since he left but he couldn't help it. It wasn't really a skill you develop when everyone wore masks most of the time.
When Kylo didn't respond, Finn felt the need to continue babbling on, "I was designation FN-2187. I was mainly sanitation so you probably wouldn't have noticed me. I was always the one that had to clean up after you'd slash up the consoles!"
Finn genuinely laughs, remembering how Phasma would approach him without saying anything but a section on the ship and he would instantly know that he was going to clean up after one of the knight's deadly outbursts. Finn, enjoyed the reminiscing and found it odd how memories that were once painful could now be recollected with incredulous amusement.
Finn keeps going, "We fought on Takodana," Finn imitated holding a lightsaber and made some swishing noises he instantly regretted. "You left a nasty scar on my back, you know. It must look pretty sweet though, people are always saying how rugged it makes my back look."
Finn lifts up his shirt and revealed his back, as if Kylo wouldn't believe that he actually had the scar that was inflicted by Kylo himself. Finn realizes he's been blabbering on about things Kylo already knows about. Yet, Kylo just seemed to stare at Finn blankly and Finn wished the other man would say something so he didn't have to start talking about the weather.
To the former Stormtrooper's relief, Kylo finally opened his mouth, "I know," He's not looking Finn in the eye anymore and Finn sensed a vague hostility in Kylo's voice when he continued, "You were the traitor. I don't think there was anyone in the First Order who didn't know you after Jakku."
The roughness in which Kylo spoke conjured up Finn's earlier fantasies. He quickly suppressed the scene playing out in his head: Kylo standing over a chained up Finn, calling him a traitor, telling him he needs to be punished, ordering him to beg for forgiveness.
Kylo didn't seem to notice and resumes in his normal tone, "Does the scar still hurt?"
The tone might have changed but the words did nothing to alleviate Finn's inappropriate arousal. "Not really. It was sore for a couple of months after I was discharged but now I barely know it's there unless someone mentions it." There was a far off look in Kylo's eyes and Finn wasn't sure what it meant, "You took a beating yourself. You were hitting your own wounds at one point."
"The pain helped me go on." Kylo said quite bluntly.
"I see." Finn said quietly. "The dark-side-Force thing, right?"
And when Kylo nods, Finn thinks everything those pilots were saying had to be true and didn't know whether that excited him or frightened him. He knew first hand how violent and unpredictable Kylo Ren was but he didn't know anything about the man standing in front of him.
Finn relates to Kylo in that respect. When he left the First Order, he was caught in a whirlwind and didn't have time to think about who he was. When things settled down and he spent those long hours in the medbay, just thinking, he realized he didn't know who he--Finn--was. FN-2187's life was regulated, controlled, and had a preprogrammed purpose since he was a child but Finn...Finn had 24 hours to do what he wanted and it was mind-blowing.
The silence had gone on too long and Finn knows this. He attempts a smile, hoping it will lighten the mood, "So, hey. If you're not busy tonight, maybe we could grab dinner and talk some more?"
It take a couple of moments but Kylo finally gives a hushed answer: "Sure."
***
Finn's so ecstatic that he rushes to where his friend's were conducting their drills to tell them. He waits for them to finish their maneuvers and as soon as they land he waves and runs towards them.
"Guess whose got a kind-of date with Ben Solo?" Finn beams at them.
"Who?" Poe asks before realizing, "Oh. That's great, buddy."
Poe wasn't nearly as enthusiastic as Finn had hoped but he found support in the other three, especially Rey. "I can't believe you worked up the nerve!"
"And I had just bet Jessika you wouldn't do it so soon," Snap lamented.
Jessika grinned at him. "I expect prompt payment," She turned to Finn, "but I am extremely curious on how you broached the subject. Details, please."
Finn recounts the conversation, leaving out the part about his erotic fantasy although they probably inserted it in themselves. Poe was the first to speak after he finished and the frown on his face could be heard in his voice, "He asked in your scar still hurt? The scar that formed after you got a wound that you nearly died of?"
Finn shrugged, "I mean, I didn't go into details and it's a reasonable to ask...right?"
Poe's frown stayed put. "No, it's not. 'Sorry for almost killing you' is a reasonable response."
Snap put an end to the burgeoning tension. "Where are you two going?"
"His room or yours is what he's asking." Jessika adds.
Everyone except Poe, his eyebrows knotted in thought, laugh. Poe reminds them that they still needed to run more drills or else General Organa will have their heads.
They all stalk off back to their ships except Rey, who gives Finn a small hug and whispers, "He's not a bad guy, Finn. Knock 'em dead."
Finn smiles. Rey always seemed to know what to say.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [2/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-27 12:55 pm (UTC)(link)Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [2/?]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-27 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [3/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-28 07:13 am (UTC)(link)-------
pt. 3/4
The date is going surprisingly well, Finn thinks.
It's been dominated by Finn rambling on about random facets of his life, which tended to be 99% First Order business. At first, Kylo didn't really contribute to the conversation beyond a simple "I know", "yeah", or "sure". But, somewhere along the way, Finn thinks it's during the story about when he found some questionable items in General Hux's trash, Kylo cracks a smile and even lets a tiny chuckle out.
Finn thinks it's the sweetest thing he's ever seen in his life and can't help but stare in adoration. Kylo notices him and touches his face to try and remove an invisible smudge. "What is it?"
The traces of laughter are still lingering on Kylo's face and Finn resists the urge to reach a hand out to cup the other man's cheek, "It's nothing. Really." Finn clears his throat and tried to play it cool, "This is your room, right? It's pretty far away from the other rooms."
Finn has ideas in his head on why that particular feature would be useful but he's being extra careful tonight to keep his thoughts pure. Kylo shrugs, "No one wanted to bunk with me so they converted an old storage room into something I could live in. It's a decent space." A moment passes and Kylo shifts his weight to his other foot, "Do you want to come in?"
Finn's mind tells him he should say no because he's not really ready at all for what might happen. But then again, Finn's mind has never been in control. "Yeah, sure, of course. I'd love to," he blurts out in an eager staccato.
When Finn enters, he notes how bare the room is. A regulation bed and desk, no decorations. The only thing that catches Finn's attention was a shine in the corner of his eye. He looks up to the shelf, just above the bed, to see Kylo Ren's mask.
Finn's heart instinctively begins racing. His voice is a bit shaky but he manages to speak with a playfulness in his voice as he points to the mask. "Kept a souvenir?"
Kylo has sat down on the bed already and he gestures for Finn to joined him. "Yeah, I guess you can call it more of a reminder. Did you not keep anything of your Stormtrooper uniform?"
Finn shakes his head. "It's just bad memories. No need to hang on to them. But if I had a sick mask like yours, I guess I'd want to keep it, too. The voice distortion thing is a pretty sweet feature," and Finn lets out a small laugh to convince himself that he wasn't scared of a damn mask on a shelf.
Kylo looks at him intently and with a low and leveled voice, he asks, "Do you want to try the mask on?"
He wasn't sure if it was Kylo's gravelly voice or the question or what the question might lead to but Finn's heart begins racing again. This is it, he thinks, this is how it starts.
Finn's mind created the scenes for him: him putting on the mask that used to represent the most evil being in the galaxy, him pinned down through the Force, him having his body explored in a mix of violence and pleasure.
Finn groans, painfully turned on by his own fear.
Kylo picks up on Finn's emotions. They're stark and inescapable, attacking him as spikes of lust and fear. Kylo is startled by how raw the emotions are and cannot for the life of him understand them. Kylo knew fear, he knew it too well, but lust was novel. He liked it more than he ever knew he could like anything so he repeats the question again, slower, hoping, begging, to receive another dose, "Do you want to wear my mask?"
Finn looks at Kylo wide-eyed and he is so consumed by the desire to jump the man that he decides he's up for anything. Finn is swift closing the distance between them in seconds. He roughly pins the taller man against his bed and he begins attacking Kylo's lips. Finn admits that it kind of hurts but he decides it's worth it to keep Kylo in the mood.
Finn doesn't realize it hurts Kylo, too. But between the kiss and the foreign emotions that are currently sending shock waves throughout his body, Kylo is clueless on how to respond.
Finn breaks it off for air. "D-do you have any rules for me?" Finn's staring into Kylo's wide eyes as he attempts to catch his breath, "Things I shouldn't do or say?"
Kylo's out of breath still and his face bunches up in genuine confusion, "What?"
First, Finn is confused. Was Kylo just not used to people asking once it got started? Then, oh Force, Finn gets it: gets why Kylo was absolutely still during that initial kiss, why his eyes are so wide and filled with confusion and wild lust, and, fuck, Finn finally sees it: the pure, sheltered innocence that radiated from Kylo's face.
Finn can't help but broadcast his thoughts out-loud, "Holy shit, I can't believe it," The words escaped his lips with an incredulous laugh attached. He got off of Kylo as quickly as he got on him and willed his hard-on to disappear to make this situation less painful for both of them.
The panic in Kylo's voice is too strong for Finn and he feels so damn guilty. "W-what's wrong? Why did you stop?" He pauses, "Did I</> do something wrong?"
Finn rubs his face and let's out a small groan filled with shame. "Ben...is-is this is your first time?" Finn looks at him in the eye, "It is, isn't it?"
Kylo thinks of lying but realizes Finn knows the answer. He nods, shyly.
The former knight's face is the most adorable shade of pink Finn has ever seen, "I-I really didn't know. We-we--you know, me and those idiotic pilots--just assumed because of you were being trained by Supreme Leader Snoke and you were on the Dark Side that you only got off on the rough play and stuff..." Finn realizes how stupid he'd been. "God, I would never have thought you were a virgin."
The last statement hit a defensive nerve with Kylo, "Why wouldn't someone be a virgin in the First Order?" He's looking at Finn now, his eyes were clear of any tears but his face was twisted in a look of embarrassment, shame and anger, "You should know better than anyone else that getting attached to people isn't encouraged. And if you can't get attached, then how can you possibly get to the point of having sex?"
Finn is dumbfounded at Kylo's innocence. "You can have sex with people you aren't particularly attached to." This was apparently news to Kylo, as his face involuntarily softens in realization, "People here do it a lot. Even in the First Order...I mean, the troopers did it a lot and I have it on good authority that a lot of officers did, too."
The other man stays quiet at this information. Kylo is practically whispering as he speaks, "So you've done it..." Kylo struggles for the word, "a lot?"
Finn shrugs.
"So I would be..." Kylo lets out a sad, little chuckle, "kinda boring for you? Nothing like Poe...right?"
Finn's head was going to explode at how adorable he found Kylo at this moment: embarrassed, shy, and jealous. "Yeah, Poe is pretty wild," The former Stormtrooper pulls Kylo into his chest, pressing his lips into the taller man's hair, "But he's no Ben Solo."
They sit there for a while, waiting for the nervous air in the room to settle into a comfortable silence. Finn eased Kylo back down into the bed and lays next to him; his chest pressed firmly into Kylo's back. Kylo reaches for Finn's hand. "You'll show me your scar one of these days, right? I just...I need to know how bad it is."
Finn smiles into Kylo's neck, "Yeah, of course. I have a strange feeling you'll be seeing a lot of my naked back in the future."
Finn vaguely feels the crooked smile forming on Kylo's face and holds him tighter.
Finn doesn't remember who falls asleep first.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [3/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-01-29 09:23 am (UTC)(link)and I'm glad you didn't go too far with the embarrassment of Kylo being a virgin.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [3/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-02-10 12:35 pm (UTC)(link)I can't wait for the last bit. Finn is just wonderful.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [3/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-02-11 03:37 am (UTC)(link)FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [4/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-03-26 10:15 am (UTC)(link)---
"You don't have to hold so tightly, Ben, I am not going to run away."
Kylo--Ben--loosens his grip on Finn's hand, "I am just a bit nervous. I've never really done this before," Kylo looks around to some of the people staring, "Especially not in public."
Finn had noticed the eyes on them, too. Some scornful, some confused, but most just with a curious delight. The former Stormtrooper didn't mind much because Finn had decided that this is what Ben needs. Ever since his startling discovery nights ago, Finn has made several more.
"That was my first kiss." Ben says first thing in the morning.
"I can't hug right." Ben laments as they ate breakfast.
"I've haven't held anyone's hand since I was a child." Ben casually admits after a meeting.
After each confession, Finn makes it his goal to rectify the statement.
So first thing in the morning, Finn kisses Ben slowly and sweetly.
After breakfast, Finn guides Ben into a long, deep hug.
And, now, Finn's holding into Ben's hand as they walk to the mess hall.
"Don't let them bother you." Finn gives a tiny squeeze to Kylo's hand and it seems to relax him, "Let's just enjoy our lunch."
Finn is abruptly pulled backwards. Upon inspection, he notices that Kylo has stopped in his tracks, steps away from the mess hall door. "I can't eat with you."
Finn's confusion shows on his face, "Why not? Do you want to sit with your friends? I can sit there, too..."
"No." Ben practically interrupts him, "That would only make the situation worse."
Finn sighs, "Ben, you have to just say what is bothering you. That's how I want this relationship to work."
"Poe."
Finn cocks his head. "What about him?"
"He hates me. I can feel that."
Finn wishes he could deny it. Not hate, Finn wants to say, more like a...a mild uneasiness. "Poe doesn't get to decide who sits with us. And he'll learn to like. Trust me."
"I don't blame the people who don't like me. I get it." And the next words that come out of Ben's mouth hurt Finn, "I killed my father, everyone's hero. And I did terrible things to Poe."
Finn pulls Ben into a hug, "Listen, your father wouldn't want people to shun you. This is what he wanted. He wanted you home, happy. Your mom, too. Rey forgave you. She told me she saw the light in you even as you were trying to hurt her." Finn smiles, his forehead resting against Ben's chest, "Now, let's just eat."
It was easier said than done: the moment Poe saw Finn and Kylo Ren walking towards the table, trays in one hand and each other's hands in the other, he couldn't stop the look of contempt on his face.
Ben couldn't stop himself from noticing.
Rey, empathetic as she was, smiled "Hi, you two! Thank you for finally joining us right when we're finishing up."
"It's not my fault that you pilots skip out early to eat," Finn laughs and takes the seat opposite Poe and between Jessika and Snap.
Ben, who decides he can't fit between Finn and the either of the two pilots that flank him, realizes the only spot available is by Poe. He tries to get Finn's attention but he is too engrossed with Rey---
("We don't skip out! We're just very efficient!"
"Skipping drills isn't what I would call efficiency!")
--to notice the former knight's silent yet desperate attempts. Poe doesn't seem to notice Ben sit next to him and for a while Ben thinks it could work.
A while is exactly one minute, as Poe glances in his direction and, Ben swears, the air around them went subzero. The gentle smile that played on his lips faded so quick that Ben wasn't sure if the pilot had been smiling at all.
Snap was the first to leave, sensing the storm brewing. "Finn's right! I will put in some more drills. Right now."
"Couldn't hurt!" Jessika says, a bit nervously, Finn notes. "Rey, how about we go practice that defense protocol?"
Rey, rather than listen to Jessika, stared at Poe, who in turn was staring at the bread on his tray as if the secrets of the world were in it. Rey hated to do this but her mind brushes against the edges of Poe's consciousness. Bad choices-Finn-love-friend-hate-Kylo Ren-evil-why...Rey's face tries not to betray her attempt at secrecy. Jessika lightly shakes Rey back into the real world. "Oh! Yeah, sure, let's go!"
Rey beams at Jessika and in a last ditch effort she tries to impart some of the Light she has felt inside Ben into Poe's mind. She is not sure if Poe would be able to understand but as she exited the mess, if was all she hoped for.
"So Ben," Poe spits the name out, "How was your date with dear Finn last night?"
"It was fine..." Ben hesitates, "Great actually."
"Did you get to see Finn's scar?"
Ben stiffens at the comment. Finn slams a fist down on the table, "Stop it, Poe!"
Poe looks up at Finn, eyes hard. "I was just asking a question." He turned to Ben, "Sorry."
"He's making an effort," Finn frowns.
"Yeah, well...good for him," Poe says biting into a piece of bread. He turns beside him. "Good for you, Ben."
"Thanks." He replies simply, unsure if he should even talk. Moments pass. "I'm sorry. For everything. It's not much, and I know I'm trying to atone for things that are unforgivable..."
"Stop," Poe interrupts. "Just stop. I don't want to hear it."
Ben's heart falters for a moment. "Right."
"You know what?" Poe sighs and buries his head into his hands. "I hate that you're involved with Finn. I hate how you can just roam around this base like you haven't committed war crimes. I hate that General Organa has to see you as both her son and the man who murdered her husband."
"What else can he do?" Finn practically shouts, catching the attention of several onlookers.
"I know!" Poe matched his tone, rising from his seat. "I know he is, Finn! I am, too!"
Poe stared into Finn's eyes, wide and brown and hurt. He broke the gaze after a minute to stalk off and out of the mess hall.
*
It was a week before Finn saw Poe again. Since the incident in the mess hall, he flew more mission just to be off the base. He avoided Finn like the plague in the brief interlude between them and Finn was proud in how he managed to corner Poe in the hangar before he was able to snake away this time.
"Hey, buddy," The older man says casually after evaluating there was no exit strategy.
"Hey, Poe," Finn replies, suddenly at a loss for words. He wasn't sure what he was going to say to Poe. As time wore on everything he wanted to say felt wrong so he found new things to say, and even they felt wrong so he decided not to say them. And the process continued and he still had nothing to say. But Finn was standing here, had been hoping for this chance to talk to the pilot for days, and he had to say something. Anything. "How was the mission?"
"Uh, fine, great. It was great," he laughs briefly, eyes focusing more on the floor in front of him than at Finn himself. "Really routine, nothing major."
"Good..."
"Finn," Poe sighs after a suspended pause, "If you want to distance yourself from me because of Ben, that's fine. I know it's nothing personal."
"Why would I?" Finn chuckles with a hint of disappointment. Poe cocked his head in confusion, lifting an eyebrow when Finn was silent too long. Finn smiles sadly at Poe, "Ben decided it's best for us not to be together. He didn't want to strain our friendship."
The pilot groans. "Oh, Finn," Poe drops the helmet in his hand and runs to the ex-trooper, pulling him into a tight embrace. "Kriff, Finn, I'm sorry. That isn't what I wanted."
Finn returns the embrace. "I know, Poe," he tightens his gripe at the last word, closing his eyes in the process.
Poe attempts to glance at the trooper's face, where he is sure there are tears glittering in the poor hangar light, then returns to nuzzling his shoulder. "If he thought I disliked him before, he was no idea now."
"Poe, I really liked him," Finn chokes, "But I want you to know that I care about you more. You're my first friend. I would never cut you off because of Ben or any other relationship."
"I'm sorry, buddy," Poe stroked circles in his back. The older man sighed internally. Kylo Ren--no, Ben made Finn happy. Poe was stilled pissed but not angry enough that he's step on Finn's chances of happiness. Now this idiot of a former Dark Lord has attempted to do something decent and managed to bungle it. Putting Poe in the position to pick up the pieces...
A sudden idea struck the pilot, causing him to smile slowly. "C'mon, let's head back to the bunk."
*
Rey slid from under the ship she was preparing and looked around.
"Something wrong, Rey?" Jessika questions. "Is it Finn?"
A few moments of silence passed, then Rey smiles, same as Poe. "Nothing is wrong. I think Finn will be just fine."
Jessika shrugs and returns to her own work. "I hope so."
Rey excitedly resumes her work. Good luck, Dameron. I'll try to help you out a bit on this end.
*
Finn grunts as Poe nibbles at his neck. "Poe, I don't think I'm ready for this yet after all."
Finn is sitting on Poe's bunk with the bunk owner on his lap, arms loosely around his neck. Poe looks up at the younger man, "Sure, buddy, I get it," he glances nervously to the door of the room, "But could I have a kiss for old times sake? I did just come back from a harrowing mission."
"I thought it was routine," Finn grins.
"Danger is routine for me," Poe returns, beaming.
"Alright, alright," Finn shrugs, laughing. "Just take the kiss, Dameron."
As soon as the words dropped from his mouth, Poe's lips attacked his. Granted, the kiss was passionate, which Finn has to admit, is like the old times. But there was a certain excessiveness to Poe's movements, to the rapid, uncoordinated roaming of his hands on Finn's back and the theatrical way he shifted his head from side to side that caused Finn to laugh into the kiss. "Okay, okay, that's enough, Dameron," he laughs as he breaks the kiss.
Finn looks at Poe, whose eyes were focused at the door. The ex-trooper follows the gaze to the door to reveal a figure staring at the couple. Poe smirks, "Hi, Ben."
Finn's eyes widen and he scrambles to stand, the pilot almost spilling out of his lap, "Ben..." He swallows, "What are you doing here?"
There is a slight tremble to the other man's voice. "I was walking by and I thought I would stop by,"
Poe almost rolls his eyes. This was not as climatic as he thought it would be. He put effort into trying to broadcast his pseudo-lust into the universe. He had already braced himself to be punched in the face but instead he was treated to this delicate dance of words. So much for Kylo Ren, Dark Lord and Master of the Knights of Ren. The pilot slides an arm around Finn's waist, "Well, it was nice to see you, Ben. Thank you for stopping by."
"Finn," Ben says, his eyes hard and focused on the pilot. "Can I speak with you?"
"You can," Poe responds for the younger man.
"Alone."
"Anything you have to say to Finn, you can say in front of me," Poe smirks, staring straight into angry dark eyes across the room, "It's just, I'm the jealous type."
Finn raises an eyebrow at Poe. "Poe, what are you saying? If Ben wants to talk alone, then..."
"It's okay, Finn. I can say it in front of him," Ben pulls a stand of hair out of his face, tucking it behind his ear as he stalks towards the pair. There it is, Poe thinks, slightly satisfied. Ben stops in front of Finn. "I'm sorry. I still want to see you."
Finn twitches, suddenly too aware of Poe's arm around his waist. The pilot takes this opportunity to drive his plan home. "Don't you think you're too late? I mean, between me and an over-sized, emotionlly-stunted virgin, who do you think Finn really wants?"
"Poe!" Finn exclaims in anger. "What are you saying?"
Ben clenches his fist. "Why don't you hate me quietly like everyone else, Dameron?"
"I would but I can't stand the thought of you and Finn together. I thought Finn would break up with you after realizing what a sick monster you are but your insecurity ended up doing it, huh? Add that to another long list of reasons why you're not worthy of Fi--"
The strike came fairly abruptly. A smooth right-hook, Poe appreciates. He was surprised on how firm it was. He didn't think Ben had any training in hand-to-hand combat. But then again, being jealous and pissed-off gives people extraordinary abilities.
Poe returns the hit with one of his own, and unlike Ben's, Poe's sends the other man to the ground. "Poe!" Finn is screaming at him. "What are you doing?! Kriff!" He's kneeling down next to the man in the floor now. "Ben. Ben, are you okay?"
The former knight nods slowly and looks up towards Poe, who is nursing his knuckles. The pilot closes his eyes and Ben can feel a force telling him to peer into the fringes of the older man's mind.
We're not anywhere close to even.
But this is a good start.
*
The next day, Poe and Ben were sporting matching bruises on opposite sides of their faces as they sat on either side of Finn in the mess. Jessika looked to Snap for the answer to the burning question of how but he shrugged helpless.
Rey beams as she sits beside Jessika. "So is everything okay with you guys?"
The reply she got were assorted mumbles from either side of Finn.
Finn, who although unharmed looked particularly tired, eyed his friend. "Rey...were you a party to this ridiculous idea?"
"Me?" she laughed innocently, "I don't have a clue what is happening right now."
"What did happen?" Snap questions before biting into his meal. Jessika complements the question by pointing at their cheeks for clarification.
"A wee bit of violence," Poe pouts through bites of food. He points to Ben casually, "Between tentative friends."
The corners of Ben's mouth twitch upwards as Finn lightly grins. Jessika and Snap look at each other in confusion, more questions forming than being answered as Rey laughs loudly. Poe chews loudly, a cross between a scowl and a pout becoming permanent fixture on his bruises face.
Finn chuckles to himself, reaching for Ben's hand underneath the table.
This'll work.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [4/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-03-26 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)I quite liked this, even though I've discovered that Poe being a jerk even for understandable reasons makes me deeply uncomfortable. It still seemed in character for him under the circumstances.
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [4/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-03-27 04:52 am (UTC)(link)Maybe because I ship both Kylo/Finn and Finn/Poe.
I liked the story thought. It can be hard showing a character in this light without going too far and making them unlikable or out of character. :)
Re: FILL: Kylo/[Finn]: expectations vs reality [4/4]
(Anonymous) 2016-05-05 08:26 am (UTC)(link)