This is actually my first fix, so I hope it's alright!
Kylo Ren's first experience with the dark side occurred when he was twelve years old. As a boy, Ren was very slight and frail. When his Master (and his Uncle) matched him with other Padawan to spar, Ren would always be outmatched. Time after time Ren faced humiliation and defeat by more able-bodied opponents.
Frustration and anger began to grow within Ren's chest, manifesting as a burning darkness that threatened to swallow him whole. At first, Ren feared this pain. The boy contemplated asking his Master for guidance. He decided against it when he saw him sweetly treating his younger cousin's scraped knee. Watching as his Uncle wiped away Rey's tears, Ren decided to keep his pain to himself. He would not be weak, this dark pain could make him strong.
Ren's two-hundredth match broke his previous chain of shameful failure. Channeling his resentment and anger as his opponent pummeled him into the ground, Ren tapped into the dark side of the force. With a strength Kylo Ren had never imagined, he threw the larger Padawan across the training grounds. Ren stood triumphantly, for the first time feeling the rush of victory.
Still panting from exertion, Kylo Ren looked to Luke. He had hoped to see pride in his Uncle's eyes. Instead he was met with suspicion, even fear. As Luke turned from his nephew, Ren again felt a rush of anger and pain. Along with that he felt the power he craved.
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Eighteen years later Kylo Ren once again faced the sting of defeat. He lay in the snow helpless, as his cousin ran to The Falcon, dragging the traitor behind her.
As Ren lost consciousness, he realized that he would have to find a surer path to the Darkness. No longer could he depend on the sting of past failures or the throbbing pain of wounds. Kylo Ren would need to experience a more constant ache if he wanted to smother the blinding light Rey possessed.
Fill: Kylux - tw for pro-ana, gore, slight non-con PART 1/5
Kylo Ren's first experience with the dark side occurred when he was twelve years old. As a boy, Ren was very slight and frail. When his Master (and his Uncle) matched him with other Padawan to spar, Ren would always be outmatched. Time after time Ren faced humiliation and defeat by more able-bodied opponents.
Frustration and anger began to grow within Ren's chest, manifesting as a burning darkness that threatened to swallow him whole. At first, Ren feared this pain. The boy contemplated asking his Master for guidance. He decided against it when he saw him sweetly treating his younger cousin's scraped knee. Watching as his Uncle wiped away Rey's tears, Ren decided to keep his pain to himself. He would not be weak, this dark pain could make him strong.
Ren's two-hundredth match broke his previous chain of shameful failure. Channeling his resentment and anger as his opponent pummeled him into the ground, Ren tapped into the dark side of the force. With a strength Kylo Ren had never imagined, he threw the larger Padawan across the training grounds. Ren stood triumphantly, for the first time feeling the rush of victory.
Still panting from exertion, Kylo Ren looked to Luke. He had hoped to see pride in his Uncle's eyes. Instead he was met with suspicion, even fear. As Luke turned from his nephew, Ren again felt a rush of anger and pain. Along with that he felt the power he craved.
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Eighteen years later Kylo Ren once again faced the sting of defeat. He lay in the snow helpless, as his cousin ran to The Falcon, dragging the traitor behind her.
As Ren lost consciousness, he realized that he would have to find a surer path to the Darkness. No longer could he depend on the sting of past failures or the throbbing pain of wounds. Kylo Ren would need to experience a more constant ache if he wanted to smother the blinding light Rey possessed.
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